In an interview with The Sun, the 49-year-old said: 'I think I will probably grieve for the rest of my life. Rene has prepared me for all my life since I’m 12. I have never met another man in my life, never kissed another man in my life.
'I miss him a lot. I miss him a lot - for my partner, for the man I was embracing, kissing, making love with. My worries, my dreams ...'
She continued: 'Now it is definitely too soon for me. I am definitely in love with [René], married to him. 'He’s the love of my life. It’s very difficult for me to see myself with another person. The love that I have for him, I live it every day.'